Coming out experiences or thoughts?

I could not imagine my father knowing
that I was like this and that I was
sucking cocks as a teen.

I was reading some things around the Internet about reactions that people got when they came out to their family that they were either gay or transgendered. Some "coming outs" were quite without incident and some ended up quite badly. I saw some accounts where the person, mostly boys, were disowned or even physically harmed by the dad.

I actually did not have an "official" coming out. I did not go to my parents and say "I'm gay!" I did not blurt out "I want to be a girl" or "I love wearing girls clothes." Just did not happen.

But my parents could tell, I am sure. I was quite a sissy growing up and even in my pre-teen photos you could see it in me. And my mother even caught me in my room in one of my sister's dresses when was around 12 or 13 so I am sure she told my dad what she saw. I guess I never really knew for sure though.

But it was quite evident. I was a loner mostly. I was not good at boy sports, but I was good at girl activities. I had close friends that were girls and we did things together, but never a girlfriend. I began shaving my legs when I was 13 or so. Hard to miss that.

My parents could not have known that I was regularly playing dress-up with another sissy, unless my sissy friend's mom found out and told them. They could not have know that I was giving blowjobs to boys.

So I was wondering what would have happened if I had had an actual coming out incident:

My dad: I think he would have disowned me, right after smacking me around. I am pretty sure of this. He came from a macho man family and grew up in a macho neighborhood. He already was distant from me because of what a sissy I was. If I had come out and said I was gay as a teen, that would have meant that I enjoyed sucking cocks. That I was already sucking cocks at that age and that I needed to suck more cocks. That would have absolutely made him flip out on me. His macho friends knowing about me would have really pissed him off.

My mother: She would have just been resigned to it since she saw me in that dress. But that is a huge step between seeing that and knowing that I was a cocksucker. She would have had trouble worrying about what her friends thought and what the ladies at church thought once the word got around that I was gay. And of course it would have occurred to people that gay sissies are cocksuckers and that they take cocks up the ass. I mean everyone knows that is what gay sissies do.

So I did not actually have a coming out moment, but my mother knew what I was up to and I have to think my dad did too. I'm sure they talked about me and figured it out because they were not dumb people.

My dad really had nothing to do with me but he was not mean to me. He still provided for me. He got sick and died when I was 24. I still have my mother and she has seen me for many years with my shaved legs and the way I dress and the way I carry on in feminine ways. She has never had a problem with the way I am. And my siblings have not either.

Did you have a coming out experience as either being gay or transgendered? What happened? If you were like me, what do you think would have happened?

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